can i handle the seasons of my life

the weather sucks, and so does my day. actually my week. yes, even with christmas and all.

vaughn has not done his business for a few days, so we had to resort to some procedure involving glycerine suppositories. i never thought mark and i would be so happy to see and smell s!@#t, literally. so i thought that was the end of life's miseries but then we got sick...all three of us. saying "appy olliddayz ehbrywond" because u have a too stuffy nose is no fun. no, not at all.

yesterday i felt like my head's gonna explode even if i bombarded myself with vitamin c and theraflu. damn cold. i don't get sick as often but when i do, it hits me hard. poor vaughn has not had breastmilk for three days now. and he got the cold -- when i hear his labored breathing i just want to die. is there a magic pill that can take all this sickness away?

i came in to work today and of course, there's a problem with the same thing we've been dealing with for two weeks now. wtf. and i still haven't sent my christmas cards, i went to michaels to do an exchange, the cards i wanted weren't there anymore. it started to rain so i decided to buy an umbrella at target (i don't want my cold to get worse), $18 for a damn umbrella. and when i went outside, the rain stopped. yes, dramatic irony.

so i'm hoping all these events are not previews of what 2007 will be. i feel like the cogs in the wheel of my life are not thoroughly in sync. do you sometimes feel that way? maybe i'm just fatigued from the holiday rush, maybe i need to get more sleep, maybe i need to do the things i want to do. there doesn't seem to be enough time to do the things you want to do once you find them per jim croce. i want to read my tuesdays with morrie book, i want to read to vaughn and have him play with all the toys he got from everybody for christmas, i want to upload tons of pics on my multiply, i want to see my sisters and chika and have a fashion show of all the clothes they got for christmas, i want to call friends and have hour long chats, i want to go to SD and visit lori and damon, i want to go snowboarding because there's at least one good thing that comes out from sucky weather and that's good snow, i want i want i want. as cliche as it sounds, "every cloud has a silver lining" and that is, i can still blog and bitch about how much my life is sucking. at least i have that. hahahahahahahahaha!